Mystic, the world does not owe you anything. It does not concern itself with what you want or feel you deserve. Though, that is not to say you are not worthy, only that the world is not indebted to you in that way.
Actually you are to give all you have to the world; that is, all of your being, with full love and justice. Showing compassion and forgiveness, giving to everything and everyone. Never holding back, regardless of condition or situation. Emptying oneself is the Way.
And do not want, ask, or demand a similar gift. Rather, be pushed to selflessness, thrive on virtue, and serve the divine principle. And the loving God will always be by your side.
No Perfect Om 